Healing My Mind Body and Spirit
The way I dealt with this all was prayer worship singing praises to the Lord. Now in the beginning it may not been for total worship because I was out of fear. Fear of this invisible entity that I cannot see being angry with me for not praying in an acceptable way that the Lord commands or we wont make it to heaven,
In the beginning of my relationship with the Lord we are not told how to pray bind and loose or even ask for what we want our lives to become. We are not told of the strongholds and ties that bind our soul to hell.
Sure we want change but exactly how does this happen? What do I need to do to get into Heaven or get God to love me, protect me, heal me and prosper me in all my ways?
For years I kept trying to do more give more to the churches I though the Lord wanted me to help. Heck I gave my car payment to a church and lost my car. This is not how our one true God works I thought we had to tithe more be in church every day and go through every single class a church puts you through to become a good Christian.
The word Christian is made up of some wonderful people but I do not associate it with my Lord and savior. I am a follower of Jesus Christ. I do not need a pastor priest or any other form of an intercessor for me to talk to the Lord.
As a matter of fact I grew up in a catholic church that the mob protected. It was a rough place to go to from kindergarten to 6th grade. We were paddled, they banged our heads into the blackboard, we were hit with erasers and last but not least the wooden pointer with the rubber point on the end.
I remember listening to the mobsters come to confessional. What a freaking joke. I was not a fan of the roman catholic churches. There were molestations rapes and every other type of debauchery in the catholic church I was in. I am not bashing the Catholic Church many wonderful churches love the Lord and I have family that are catholic and theirs is not like any other I ever seen they read the bible and love Jesus. For me I grew up in the 60s and 70s they were tough on rules back then.
But after years of research in to what the Vatican symbolism means in the Vatican. The golden pictures behind the alter means and most importantly stands for, I was so shocked at what I was finding I had to slow down as the truth was not easily digested as I was raised catholic. As you know once you see a thing you cannot un-see it. It stays with you especially after you get saved God brought so many facts and people to me to see and learn and oh my gosh was I floored. So I am neither denomination I am a follower of Christ and that’s where I will leave that one forever. We see what we can process and believe what we are told as children growing up. What the heck do we know is true or false? After the knowledge the Lord needed me to see I was more dedicated to the invisible entity I could not see, why? He never lied to me he always told me the truth and because of how tainted and syndical I was I always asked for proof I needed proof to confirm it was the Lord telling me all these new lessons.
In the beginning It was not easy to know who was talking to me. It became real that not all I was hearing in my spirit was the truth or from God. We need discernment knowledge and most of all we need to be plugged in to Jesus by asking him into our hearts and letting him clean up our house our bodies is where he resides. As with any new relationship it must be nurtured, protected and until that relationship was on solid rock I really had to pay attention. My pastor once told me I had to stop letting satan jerk my chain.
Well you cannot be more truthful from the man of God on that subject. I had to sit and let that marinate for some time. Why did he say that and what was he talking about? I was so eager to come out for the Lord I was always looking for the big score break or find a mentor that would bring me out to the world. Sound familiar. It was my childhood all over again.